Falling in love .. yet again...

I am married to the most wonderful person on this planet - my husband Karthik. How we met, became friends, fell in love, got married is a post yet for some other day...

On Oct 21, 2009 we became parents for the very first time - and were greeted by our son at 7:11 pm. I call him my 7 Eleven boy! He was born at 36 weeks, so his arrival did take us by surprise so it took me a while to adjust to him, and my new role. I'm not the falling in love at first sight person, and I did not feeling the sense of bonding towards my son - Adhrit right away. Initially it was about learning how to nurse, clean diapers, and make sure the little guy was ok, and was well fed. My husband and I would time the process of feed/clean/feed again/clean - and the fastest we did was 45 minutes - I still remember. The initial few weeks were tough, and are like a haze to me. When I see his pictures - I can't believe how tiny he was, and how his clothes were so huge for him.

Somewhere between 6 weeks - 8 weeks after he was born, I had a chance to take a breath, and start to get to know him, get a sense of bonding towards him. When I did, it was a different feeling all together - something I had never experienced, but only heard from other moms.

Now my son is 6 months old, and our bond has grown stronger, and stronger each day. We have activities that both of us enjoy. He joins us in bed after 3 am in the morning, and the few hours with him in bed is bliss. He loves the water - put some water in the sink, and he will kick around in the water for hours (given a choice). During that time, he has a sense of content look on his face. He does not show too many emotions when he is loving what he does - he is just too involved in the activity. He has the same look on his face when he is on the swing, and when he is in the baby carrier. I can sense he is content. I am waiting to go swimming with him, introduce him to a medium he was in for 36 weeks :)

I am amazed by the amount of faith he has in me. Holding him calms him down so much. He seems to put a lot of trust in me. The smile I get every time he sees me when I come home for lunch or come home at the end of the day - just makes my heart explode with different emotions for him. A very different set of emotions surface when I see him. He is growing up too fast for me, and I want to freeze these moments if I can. Normally, I want to do a 100 things in a day kinda person, but when I am with him, its amazing how I can just do nothing and my day is made. I still remember one afternoon he and I spent in bed, we did nothing but nap, read, nurse.. just stayed in bed for hours ! It was such a perfect Saturday afternoon.

His smile, his laugh make me happy. Playing pat-a-cake with him makes him happy. Just saying "ku-ku" cracks him up!

Being with him, makes me realize how simple life can actually be - and I strive for my life to be as simple as his!

Somewhere between week 0 and now, I fell in love with him - I just did not know until today when I chatted with my best friend. And it feels great!

Looking forward to many many years of fun with the little guy!